Jessica's Random thoughts

WOW! long time no see

2007-01-18T16:54:00.000-08:00

Well, as most of you can see I have not written in like three months which is pretty long for me. But I guess I just have been so busy lately. I have a lot on my plate this year. I have a VERY clingy boyfriend and very challengeing school work this year and volleyball and to top it all off lovely injuries left and right. Well, unless you have no idea who I am or what I have been up too or just been living under a rock for the past month I just got back from Bob's winter camp. (Which is Basic Training AKA a christian bible camp.) And well I would have tyo say this is the first time in five years that I have gone to Bobs that I abosolutle HATED going!! It was just a bad trip for me. For plenty of reason. One was like I felt like I was caught in between something that I didn't really want to be caught in betwwen but I felt like I had to. Ok I know going to offend people when I say what I am going to say next but you now what I don't care anymore we are all big girls. Eva and Tamera where argueing the whole time that we were at Bob's pretty much. And they would both coma and like vent to me. Which is fine I am good listen thaT is what I do. But like I don't have all the answers and I can't fix everything. And all they really did was come and talk trash about one another the whole time and well, they are both my friends and I didn't know what to do so I was like all caught up in that and that was like SUPER stressful. this is probably making no sense at all. And then like Aaron my Boyfriend came with us to Bob's and he was like getting Jealous the WHOLE time. And like all I was doind was talking to Caleb or Chapman or Robert or some Guy and he would think I was flirting and like he would just sit there and pout the whole time and pissed me off. And likw when I tried to spen tim eiwth Gale or Tamra or anyone else besides him I was accused of flirting or ignoring him. And then he was getting like Autumn and Eva to come and say stuff to me like oh you should pay more attention to aaron or he looks so sad or tyou are so flirting with them. And I am like OMG I see him EVERYDAY!!!! and I see these people like what once a year he can give up a weekend of his life for me to have fun with my friends. And then like Aaron kept writing all these notes so I was getting NOTHING out of Bob's sessions. And it was all just suckie!!! I hated Bob's this year a lot. plus there is a lot more drama I guess going on in my life that has to deal with certain people that I really don't want to put out in the public like this. And the worst part is I spent the whole weekend trying not to mess up my elbow again my not playing certain games and stuff. and as soon as I get back to school this girl drops a chair on my elbow. So Cindy (my aunt) takes my to the ER which was pointless...and then I am referred to UK sports medicine. and Ihave to go to an oppintment the next day which wa s Wed. and I find out I have messed the nerve up in my elbow and I have to wear this nija turtle lookin elbow pad and I also have tendnidous (sp?) so yea loads of fun for Jessica. Plus, I have tons of Homwork to make up and I have no clue how to do half of it. But yea I think your pretty much caught up on my life now. or atleast the good stuff.

I Got a Kitty!!!

2006-10-22T16:11:00.000-07:00

I gotta kitten! I gotta kitten! I gotta kitten HEY HEY HEY!!!!!

So Saturday after I took the PSAT Cindy and I went out shopping and like we went to the new store gordmans in hamburg and then we went to pertsmart!!! And there at petsmart was the scott county humane society and like they had all these cute little kittens!! And so like we saw this one cat that was like sleeping all funny in his cage and so Cindy and I went over to look at him and there was like two other cats in the cage with him. And so we start reading the little cards about the cats and then we see WRIGSLEY (sp?) !!!! And he is the cutest little thing ever and like he is great with other animals and all this stuff. And so I looked to Cinday and was like PLEASE can we get him!!!! PLEASE!!! And so like the lady took him out of the cage and I got to hold him and I was like PLEASE and guess what!! I gotta kitten I gotta kitten I gotta kitten HEY HEY HEY HEY!!!!!!! Yep he is so cute!! And he is a lot of fun!! He is so playful and he like jumps around all over the place and he sleeps on your face at night it is pretty funny!! YEP!! I love him!!! But Aspen our other cat is not to wild about him!! So yea here are some pictures of him!!!

Everything that I am OCD about

2006-10-14T15:47:00.000-07:00

I really don't know why I am writing this! I am just really bored so I decided to write all my OCDs out since everyone makes fun of me about them!

1. My food must never touch other food

2. I can only eat one thing at one time.

3. Everything must match. My shoes must match my shirt and pants and like my sock trim must match my shirt (IE if there is a black trim on my sock I must be wearing a black shirt)

4. Pretty much everything must be organized. like my locker the books are organized by hour my book shekf is alphabatized.

5. I can't sleep on a warm pillow.

6. All the zippers on my backpack must be zipped. Like it can't be open at all not even a little bit.

7. It drives me crazy when tags on shirts stick out.

8. When I write like IMs or Emails I can't stand it when people like shorten things like B/C ot BTW or WTF or things like that! You can only do that on certain words like OMG and LOL and TTYL

9. I must wash my own clothes I don't like them to touch other peoples clothes.

10. When I wash dishes I must always wear gloves because I can't stand touching food or dirty water.

11. Things can't be tilted! Like if a picture frame is tilted it drives me crazy. So I always fix stuff like that. And like everyday I fix the pictures in my locker when they move. And like I don't like it when people move my pictures in my locker like I have to move them to like right to where they originally where. And I don't like it when like I am typeing on word and my text is it center. Like I will play with things for hours on word trying to get it like perfectly center

12. I count my steps. Like I count the number of staris too.

13. I count pretty much everything. Like I count the number ok books on a shelf or like the number of pens in the cup or the number of cars that pass.

14. like everyday when I eat lunch at school I have to eat it the same way. I must eat my sandwhich first then my chips and then my oreos.

15. I have like a patter that I have to follow everyday when I wake up. And I hate the first day of school becaus eI have to like come up with a new schedule to follow eevery morning.

16. When we drive down like a highway I read like all the road signs.

17. Sometimes whne I walk like on sidewalks I have to make it so that one foot goes in each block or two feet depending on the size of the block.

I think this is all. But I am sure I will think of more. And then I will have to post a new blog because it will kill me to leave it out. And like I will probably be think about this all night trying to firgure out if I have any more. hey I think that is another OCD ! Hehe

The sad thing about life continued

2006-09-03T19:38:00.000-07:00

This is what Sarah replied to are little disscuion below. If this makes no since to you just read the blog entry below and then comeback to this one and then you will understand! But Sarah didn't delete me so that is one brightside!

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first off, i reposted the bulletin because i thought it was interesting and maybe opened the mind of some christians who would be open for discussion. the first theory you talk about, evolution, there is scientific proof of evolution, and THAT is all around you. i'm not just talking about evolution of monkey to human, but other species, plants, bugs and animals as well. your second theory on the pond chemicals and such, i haven't heard, but would be happy to look into...although you do make an interesting point, how were the chemicals created? well maybe you can answer me this: how was god created? if god created everything, how did he create himself? and if something created god, then wouldn't he have higher authority over said god? now that to me just doesn't add up. you mention satan, and how he makes people sin. i don't believe in satan and i think that if you sin, that was your own fault, you're responsible for your own actions, and if you do something wrong you shouldn't believe on something/someone else, but that's just me. no where in public school history books that aren't biased does it say that 'god sent his only begotten son to die on the cross to pay for our sins' i'm not denying that jesus was actually a real, living, breathing, person who spread the word of god, but i find it impossible to believe in a god(s). it is only a theory, and not a fact that jesus was actually god's son. and i don't consider the bible a reliable resource, because honestly, anybody could have written it. and yeah, im sorry it made you sad that some people aren't christians, but that's life, and i couldn't imagine a world where everybody thought the same way, it was be ridiculous.

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And this is my reply to here reply!

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Well, there is no scientific proof of evoulution being true! If you notice it is called a theory or the darwin theory. It is a theory (it is not even a scientific theory)! Which means it is what somone thinks! now if evoultion were scientific law then it would mean it is true and that they have proof of it! If you don't believe me! Go to school Tuesday and ask you teacher the difference between a theory and a law! And he/she will tell you that a theory is not totally true! Now You might saw well religion is a theory as well! But I say but wait! Scientist can not prove that there is no such thing as a God! But they can prove evolution wrong! I recomend that you read a book called "Evidence that demands a verdict". Why you might ask! Because this book is about a man that set out to prove christianity all wrong! It might be very intresting to you! Now to answer your big question how was God created! Well, God was never created he just exist! No human can totally understand God! Because you are trying to understand an infinite God with a finite mind! No one created him therefore being no other person of higher athority! Then to kind of clear things up with the whole stan thing! I don't blame satan for the sins that I do! I agree that we are responsible for our actions! Although Satan temps us to do bad things. All Satan wants from us is for us to sin and come away from God! And I am goign to explain to you what I believe and what God I believe in! I believe that there is a god that created the heavens and the earth! And he also created me and everyone else! I also believe that he gave us his only son to die for me! Because Jesus died on the cross my sins are no longer held against me. And because of that I may go to heaven when I die! And I also have a relationship with God now! Next thing! WEll of course you are not going to find anything about God or Jesus in a public school history book! But there is more history books out there then the one your school gives you every year! But SChools take christianity out of the history books because they have banned christianity! And the bible is a very good history book! Yes I know you said anybody could of written it! But if it was such a joke why is it still around! If you read what the bible says you will see that it actually applies to your life. And the bible answers all the questions! Even if you don't believe in the same god that I belive in you still do believe in god! Your God just might be an important person in your life or a favorite singer! Or anything that you base your life around or is your key focus in life that is a god or an idol! And yes I agree that is impossible for the whole world to belive in the same God because there is always Satan there to stop us or make us question the exsistence of God! But there is a place that everyone belives inthe same God and that is called heaven!

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I don't know how this is going to turn out! Maybe I get to lead another friend to the Lord or maybe not! All I know is God has a plan! I guess I will just keep posting our emails back and forth!

The sad thing about life

2006-09-02T17:05:00.000-07:00

Ok today whenI logged on to myspace I saw that one of my friends had posted a new bulletin and the name of it was "God." At first I thought it was those stupid bulletins that said oh if you don't repost this then you don't love God or those stupid bulletins like that! Which I hate! Because you can't base love on a stupid bulletin on myspace! Anyways sorry not the point of this blog! So I kind of ignored it. But then I like was leaving comments on peopls pages and stuff and I kept coming back to my home screen and seeing that stupid bulletin and it was killing me not to read it and so I read! And I have to say I was very sad after reading it! Ok so this is the bulletin that Sarah (my friend that I have been talking about) posted!
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something interesting i read in JoAnna's blog.
God.
For everyone who believes in God. I want you to answer a few questions for me.- Have you ever SEEN God?- Have you ever TALKED to God?- WHY do you believe in God?- Do you believe that when you die you'll live in "heaven"?- Have you ever looked into any other religion?- Do you even give a shit about the bible and what it teaches?- Do you FOLLOW what the bible teaches?
If you're up for it, read these:The ontological evidence against gods
Necessary a god is a being that is worth worshipping, so if there is no being worth worshipping there cannot be a god.
Not any of the existing religions can provide such a god. How do we know if there are no undiscovered beings worthy our submission? Well if there is a being that has either failed or not tried to communicate with us that being is not worth worshipping either, so the ontological evidence against god holds, even without complete knowledge of the world.
There is a test, based on the ontological evidence against god, that you can do to try the existence of god. Pray, and ask god to provide you with a clear proof for his existence within a week. After that week, if you have got a proof that god exists, send me the evidence. If not, there are only three reasons I can think of that are plausible: (1) God does not exist, (2) God does not want to or (3) God can't give you this evidence. Because of the ontological evidence, alternative (2) and (3) are not worth your worship and thus they equal alternative (1). So if you get no response there is no god.
Some things are impossible to do
There are things that are impossible to do. For example nobody can cover a two-dimensional surface with two-dimensional circles, without making them overlap. It is impossible to add the numbers two and two and get 666. You can not go back in time (without passing an infinite entropy barrier). The number of things that are impossible to do are almost infinite. If god were to be almighty he would be able to do them, but it's impossible to do so.
Some people say that he can only do things that are logically possible to do, but what is? Is it logically possible to walk on water? Is it logically possible to rise from the dead? Is it logically possible to stand above time, space and all other dimensions - and still exist? I'd say that everything which violates the laws of physics are logically impossible and thus omnipotence is logically impossible. Besides if omnipotence is a relative quality there is no way to tell omnipotence from non-omnipotence. For omnipotence to be a valid expression it must be absolute, but we have no objective criteria to measure omnipotence so the word itself is useless.
The void creator
If everything must have been created, then god must have been created as well. If god is not created, then everything mustn't have a creator, so why should life or cosmos have one?
Besides this argument has another leap. If everything has a source and god is that source, then god must have existed without it before he created it. So if god created time and space, he must live outside of time and space. Thus he is non-existent. If all life must come from something and that is god, god is not alive and hence non-existent. If moral must come from god, god lacks moral. If logic comes from god, god is illogic. If nature comes from god, god is unnatural. If existence comes from god, god is non-existent. If god is the cause of everything, god is void.
Epilogue
If god is so mysterious, how can we know anything about him? Through the Bible? How do we know that the Bible and not the Koran or the Vedha books, for example, are the words of god? (or the bible if you believe in any of the other two books). Considering the cruelties that have been made in the name of god, how do we know that not all religions are made by Satan?
If there is no way to know this but to trust people who claim they have had "divine experiences" there is no way to tell true from false prophets. One has to give up his free mind and follow the authority of a dictator. Remember also that it is the person making a positive claim who has to prove it.
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This was my reply to her bulletin! She might delete me from her myspace! but I don't care! I am willing to stand up for what I believe in! And if that means losing a friend over it! Such is life! I'll get over it! Plus she was not a closer friend anyways so I will get over it really fast! Sorry thats not funny! But its the truth! Anyways! my reply!

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I have seen the miracles that God does! And that is good enough for me! Yes I have talked to God I talk to him everyday. I believe in God because well if you look at scientist explanation of how we came to be they all don't add up! For example the idea we came from Monkeys. Well If we came from Monkeys why is it that monkeys today are not still having humans! And why is it when humans have babies it is not a monkey first! So there goes that theory! Second theory we came from some pond experiment like chemicals got mixed and then humans were formed! Well, how did those chemicals get created and who made those chemicals! So it all points to one possible answer there really is a god! Ok I mean you can't tell me that there is no God look around you! God is everywhere! And if you believe in Satan! Well guess what God created him because he once was a Angel! I mean things justy don't happen by accident! I mean you wakeing up every single day is not an accident or luck! Its God! You know why they call Christianity Faith it because you have to have it to belive in god! I mean you have to have it it to believe anything! And the really cool thing about the Bible is the prophets (people that were told by God what would happen). For example Peopl perdicted many many years before jesus dies on the cross that a God would send his son to die on the cross! and well it came true! Its in your history books! If you read the different prophicies in the Bible you will see what I mean! No I have never looked into any other religion! Because I found christianity and I believe in it with all my heart and just waking up in the morning and see the earth is a enough for me to believe in God. Yes I give a shit about what the bible says! I mean the bible is what I believe in It is me handbook! And some of the stories in there are very insresting! Yes I believe that when I die I will live in heaven! And that is where God is waiting for me! He is waiting with his hands open wide! I can't say that I follow everything that the Bible says because I am human! and because of satan we sin and God knew that! And I am a christian that sometimes sins! But Thats because of satan! and God knew there would be sin in the world thats why he gaver us his son and thats how we get christianity (religon)! Well, I think I have made my point here! Fell free to write back I would love to here your opinion about this! And if you think I am wrong show me where I am wrong! You know this bulletin is really sad! I broke my heart to read it! But you know what its your opinion and I totally respect your opinion!

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2006-08-07T21:31:00.000-07:00

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Bob's camp 4th year

2006-07-16T16:19:00.000-07:00

Well, this is my 4th year attending Bob's camp! And I would have to say this was the greatest year! I mean everything was amazing! And there was just something different about it this year! I mean it was different because there was like 80 people there but I mean I was different going in there! Well, lately God has been working in my life to kind of help get over some problems I have had all my life! And Well for like all my life I have been trying to get over these problems all my life by myself! And Well, recently I have kind of change my life around! Like I just gave it all up to God! I stopped trying to do things all by myself! But anyways! One night Bob asked us two questions in he overhead! What do you want to discuss this week and what is your greatest need? And we all answered these questions anonymously! And well for the first question I put emotional purity because I had read this book about it and it was very convicting! But I also put that I wanted to learn about how you were supposed to love a parent that does not love you back!I mean all my life I have always had a father who had a hard time loving me and a hard time of showing that he wanted me! And I would be mad and jealous at other kids who had these dad's that loved them and was not afraid to show it! And for years I have always wanted this and I have tried everything to get my Dad's attention!! But of course I always failed! So like one of the things that was very encouraging to me was that Bob said I have a father and he loves me with all his heart and he would do anything for me! And even though I can't see him I can still talk to him and he will answer me and he actually knows how to show his love!! And I never really thought of him that way! I just kind of always thought of God as this Big all mighty guy that did a lot for me and had a pretty good good deal for me! But this week I got a new perspective of God and well I kind of got a new dad! And this weekend I felt like God was saying it is ok Jessica I am here and I love you! And so that can of gave a peace to me that I don't have to tear my heart up about this earthy father because I got a better farther that is waiting for me! But I just kind of felt like God was speaking to me because out of all the 80 people there and out of all the 80 answers it was my paper that he read off! I mean my paper/answers was like one of the first he read off! Oh yeah my answer to the second question was my greatest need was to be accepted and to be loved! And well that is what Bob's is all about! I mean that is just how everything at bob's is!! Everyone there loves everyone and they accept everyone!! And well, that is just what keeps me going back every year! I mean here I just feel like a loner!! And that people there love you and accept you for who you are not for what you wear what you look like or where you are from or his much money you have! I mean Bob's camp is like a little heaven on earth! And well it is just so upsetting that I have to leave and come back to this judgmental world that we leave in!! But that had to be the worst thing was leaving bob's!! I am just glad to know that there are actually people out there that don't judge you and they love you for who you are! And well they meet at this really cool camp called Basic training! Well, another thing that was different about Bob's was that this time was there was this feeling inside of me that was fighting against me to fall asleep and it was like saying LISTEN! And well this year I just got so much more out of Bob's! I mean and when I was tempted to give in and stop listening I just kind of said no!! I mean there was one time Eva looked at me and wrote a tic tac toe game on a piece of paper and I just looked at her and said no I really want to listen! And this year was like the first I didn't doodle in my notebook! Because usually I had to doodle to stay awake but this time I was just so entertain by God's work that I didn't need to doodle! So that was awesome to me and it shows that God really has made a difference in my life! I just want to say that God (my father) is really awesome!! I mean look what he does for me everyday!! So well that was just a little bit what happened to me at Bob's if you want to know more you can just ask and I would be glad to tell you!!! And if you want to know some of the crazy/funny stuff happened at Bob's I am more than glad to tell you!! So yeah!

My calling in life

2006-06-26T09:35:00.000-07:00

Well, I think I might of found out what my calling is! But I might be wrong but this is just what I think it is! I think my calling is to share the gospel with others. Because I mean I love doing it and it seems easy for me to do! But really made me think this was my calling was last night at youth. Well, we were sitting in Mike's office in a circle. And we went around the room saying where we were with God. Like had we accepted him or were about to accept him or just not ready or still had questions. So when we went around the room there were two people that were still a little confused and had not accepted Christ yet! And as soon as the two people said that I wanted so bad to drag them out of that room and sit and talk with them till they accepted! I mean I just had that feeling that I wanted to do that. I know I talk about sharing a lot but it is important to me that we all share our faith with someone. I mean it is like Gadis said we all have eternal life it just depends on where you are living that eternal life whether it be in Hell or Heaven! And I don't want any one to have to go threw Hell for ever! I guess am like that one guy in Dare2share's little play. Were the guy brought tons of unbelievers to his youth leader because he didn't want anyone to go to hell. I forget his name. I think it was Jimmy maybe. I am sure Eva or matt know the story I am talking about. Anyways! I don't know if this is or is not my calling. But I mean I have been praying for God to show me how he wanted to use me! And last night that feeling well I took that as my sign! But I could be wrong! IDK God can be confusing sometimes! Hope this all makes sense!

"I need you to love me"--Barlowgirl

2006-06-22T15:22:00.000-07:00

Wow, this is like my life in a song! I like fell in love with this song the first time I heard it! I mean because this is so me because I have pushed God away so many times in my life but yet he still is always there! I guess you could say my Christian life has been well back and forth! I mean I kind of go through stages! Where I am like so addicted to God like he is all I can ever think about! And then I get all God happy for awhile and then he just kind of goes away! Like I runaway from him! And I blame him a lot! But anyways This is what I have done most of my life I get real close to God and then I runaway from him! But my life has kind of well change as one would say! I mean after sharing the Gospel with Ben (who btw is not my BF any more but that is a different story) my life has become so different! Like God is all I ever think about! And Well, I don't feel lonely in life anymore and I don't Blame God for my earthly fathers mistakes! And I just feel a lot closer to God! And I LOVE IT!!! But I don't think I have ever felt this close to God! But it is pretty awesome! So yeah! Well the song lyrics are below! It is an awesome song!! I love it! If you have never heard it before it is on my myspace and I put the link to my myspace on this blog so yeah! Oh yeah sorry but this is really random but um whoever reads this Pray for my cousin he broke his back because he got ran over by a dirt bike in his race the other day and he broke his back in two places! And Also Pray for Ben that he stays strong in his faith with the lord! yeah that was kind of off subject and random but you understand!! :o)

"I need you to love me"--Barlowgirl

Why, why are You still here with me,
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run
And hide myself there
But its here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

But I need You to love me,
And I, I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
Cuz You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

And I need You to love me,
And I, I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been
Oh, oh

And I need You to love me, yeah
I need You to love me, yea-ee-yea
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me...yeah
I need you to...
Oh, oh... oh, oh... (repeat 3x)
Love me...love me...(fade)

Pay it forward--Christian style

2006-06-18T13:45:00.000-07:00

I am sure everyone has seen the movie Pay it Forward. Well, if you have not it is where this kid in the 5th or 6th grade gets an assignment where he has to try and change the world. So his plan to change the world was called Pay it Forward. And in his plan one person does something two three other people and then those three people go and help three other people. And then good deeds just take over the world. Well, I was thinking what if the church did this but kind of change it a little. Instead of doing a good deed for someone we share the gospel with someone. So I Jessica could share the gospel with three different people and then those three people can go share the gospel with three other people. That would just be amazing! Granted this would most likely not work because the world is nothing like Hollywood tries/wants to make it. But this idea could be something easy to do and the church would not need loads of money to do it. It is just something simple. Just think if everyone at tatesbrook did this. Lets see there is about 75 people at Tatebrook. So if those 75 people followed through with the plan that would be 225 people that would have a chance to know Jesus Christ. I don't know about you but this sounds like a plan to me.

You know when you lead someone to the Lord it feels so awesome! But if it feels so awesome why is it that people aren't doing it all over. I mean to share the gospel with someone you don't have to know a bunch of bible verses or stories in the Bible. You just have to know what you chose to believe. And when you are sharing the gospel there is no rules you have to follow you just go with the flow. SO why is it that people are not doing it all over the world! I mean as soon as you do lead someone to the lord that is all you can think about and like all you want to do. Sorry I sound like some gospel freak but I mean this is a pretty big thing in my life! But yeah this is just what I kind of been thinking about! So basically YEAH!

Sharing the Gospel

2006-06-14T12:01:00.000-07:00

June 13th I got to share the Gospel with my Boyfriend Ben. And it was awesome. It all happened over an IM conversation in AIM! Yeah I know pretty dorky! Anyways We were talking about my bad day and then we started talking about religion and what I believed. And of course Ben knew of nothing I was talking about. And I was like I would love to tell you! So then we started talking about God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. And I told him how Jesus died on the cross for our sins. And he was confused why Jesus died on the cross for us if Jesus never sinned. So I explained it to him. I just like told him what I believe. And what I believe is that God created the Heavens and the earth and that he sent his son Jesus into the world. And that Jesus died on the cross for our sins so that we could closer to God. And then he came back to life on the third day. And from like 11 tile 3 in the morning Ben would ask questions and I would answer them for him. And he asked Questions like What happens if you don't believe in God? Does God still love you even if you are not a Christian? Is God a man or a women? Is God really a person? And then finally he asked What does it to take to become a Christian? I was jumping for joy! I was so happy that he had asked! So I told him all he had to do was pray to God telling him you knew you were a sinner and that you want him to live inside of you! And So I gave him an example of a pray to pray! And then the next question he asked was Is it ok to whisper when you pray? So this is my wonderful news of Ben (my boyfriend) becoming a Christian! This was just so amazing to me! I had been praying for ever for God to give me the words to tell Ben about the Gospel And what do you know he did! And look what amazing came out of it! Sharing the Gospel with Ben had to be the greatest feeling in my life! I mean I had butterflies in my stomach when I was telling him about the Gospel! But this just goes to show that God is amazing and that anyone can share the gospel with someone! I mean you don't have to be a youth leader, pastor, or a really old person you can be a young and goofy teenager!! But I am just so over joyed that Ben accepted Christ! This was just something Eva and I had been praying that this would happen! But I am just amazed at God's work! So Three cheers for God! Hip Hip hurray!!! Hip Hip hurray!! Hip Hip hurray!!!!

INTRO

2006-06-14T11:48:00.000-07:00

Ok well, as some might know I have a blog on myspace but I just wanted a blog on this site with everyone else in my church! And I really don't know what I am going to write about in this. But my life has defiantly changed a lot and I want others to know about it. And maybe learn from it! But I just love blogging. I do it everything I get a chance! I like blogging because it just clears your thoughts and it makes me happy! I guess I will just write about whatever comes to mind! You will find through out my blogs that I jump from idea to idea a lot! I don't know why I do that! But I do! So anyways! I hope you enjoy reading my blog!